Thank You for bringing me back.

I was so worried earlier this evening but I really thank God for bringing me back  to Him. Thank You God.

I decided that I shouldn’t be sad over it anymore.

I was feeling really horrible earlier this evening and I was so sad and horribly worried about it that I was just crying so badly. I was talking to Rie on the phone and yeah, couldn’t help but just cry it out. It wasn’t that obvious though. Thanks ongy, for listening to me even though you weren’t feeling well. But I really needed someone to talk to.

I will blog about it very soon but for now, I just want to keep it out of my mind. So I shall blog about happier things. Yeah.

Okay, pictures of OG 14!

OG 14!!!!!!

The best days of my life, were also the most sinful.

Dear God, thank You for reminding me once again of how wrong I have been. How wrong I have been to engage in things that displease You and how wrong I have been to go against Your will. Dear God, it’s so hard to say no sometimes and I have failed so many times. But yet, You don’t despise me for that. You don’t stop loving me because of that. You don’t and You never will. So many times I have fallen short and as each day passes, I sin multiple times and fall way short of Your standard.

Dear God, thank You for helping me to realise this now, even at such an awkward time and place. Indeed, the best days of my life have been the most sinful days of my life simply because I have derrived pleasure and joy by the World’s standards. It’s so hard to live life like that and its really horrible when I look back and think of how happy I was back then. But now, even though I don’t experience such things, I take comfort in knowing that I am doing the right thing.

To have faith. This is what I have been struggling with. Dear God, I pray that You will help me because I can’t do it alone. I’ve tried so many times and I have failed. But when I placed it in Your hands, I felt relieved. But now that it’s coming back, I commit to You again. I’m so sick of living as though its the end of the world cause things don’t go my way. I WANT to live like it’s the beginning of everything good and joyful because things are going to go YOUR way.

Even though I may still cry over these things, I know that You are in full control and You will wipe every tear away. Father, I pray that I will not fall into temptation again. Even though those were the best days of my life and I miss those days so so much but I know that they displease You and I don’t want to do it again.

²Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2

Whatever happens in the future, whether it goes my way or not, may it please You and to You be the glory forever.

Amen.

IXODUS

No more orientation! I’m sad. Past few days of school have been jammed packed with loads of fun and games. And yeah, tmr we start all the talks and maybe the mass ‘mock’ lectures. Whatever you call them. I’m kinda excited actually.

Anyways, IXODUS ALL THE WAY. Haha, we won the cheering comp. Which was supposedly the main thing of the entire grand finale so, yaye! I didn’t expect that we would win actually. But, God is good! Haha. Thank God for all my nice and friendly OG mates who have been so supportive throughout the entire duration of orientation!

Really felt the school spirit today, esp during mass dance and mass sing along session. Whoah. It was mad. Everyone was just hugging each other, singing and singing, not caring whether we went out of tune or not. It was a really great experience. 14 all the way!

I’m really tired so yeah. I shall go now.

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Dear God, You know the desires of my heart. I pray that You will remove all uncertainty and that You will take charge of this entire thing. Come what may, even though I may be disappointed at the end of the day if things don’t go out the way I expect,  I will still trust that Your plan is a perfect one and You have your reasons for doing everything that You do. I entrust and leave it to You. Amen.

My heart skips a beat everytime I see you.

Everyone who’s reading this post is probably going like.. oooh. Cause of the title. But no, it doesn’t suggest anything. I just think that its a v nice sentence. As in, it makes sense and sounds quite lovely too.

Super tired. Orientation ends tmr. I’m kinda sad but at the same time looking forward to having lectures and studying again. I’m really weird huh. Okay nvm, it’s okay. Weird is another form of uniqueness.

I was just thinking to myself today when I was in the shower, that God is really smart. And I was reassured again that He knows exactly what He’s doing in my life. Even though I don’t even though what’s happening or going to happen in my life, He knows it. And He knows it so so well. I was just thinking that in about 5 years from now, if I still blog, I will be able to proclaim that God has been good and He still remains good now and forevermore.

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But until that day when I realise why God allowed this to happen, I will still believe.

14, 14 all the way!

Haha, second week of school. Not bad. I’m enjoying school. Really thank God for that.

Tmr’s gonna be exciting. I really pray he likes it cause I spent so much time. Even though its not exactly very up to standard. But, yeah. I would like to have a gift like that too! I can just sense that tmr’s gonna be fun. Haha.

If he doesn’t like it, then all of Wei Xuan and my efforts will be gone to waste! Wei Xuan is this new guy I met from SA. He’s in my OG too. Haha. Cool guy. It was really cool cause I met Rie on the bus. Or rather, she waited for me and the bus to arrive.  Then yeah, made friends and all. The World needs more people who are friendly.

Haha, I realised today. That Praveed is super funny. Now I understand why Gayle keeps talking about him. HAHA.

OG dinner tmr night! Yaye!

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Oh, I was really happy to see ongy today again. Really miss her a lot and her randomness and crappiness.

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Really tired and my batt’s running low cause of amazing race today and the million mass dances that we did. Gosh. Okay, I shall go now. Bye!

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Dear God, this is prayer again. Let not the things of this World EVER sway me.

Your name, is a strong and mighty tower.

With God, I have nothing to fear.

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School again tmr! Happy for ling cause she got into SA. Yaye. Riee. I’m praying for you okay? Yep.

I’m just really tired and not in the mood to blog right now. So yeah. Goodbye.

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My God will never leave me nor forsake me.

First day in SAJC!

Haha, interesting day. I was really worried on the way to school cause I didn’t know what awaited me. But yeah, it was fun nonetheless. Except that it was really tiring too.

Played games and had talks about academics and Principal’s address as well. Yep.

Met new friends all from different schools and yeah, enriching experience I guess. Just getting to know different people. Yeah. Looking forward to tmr! More games. Haha.

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IT’S ONLY THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL AND I MISS RIE.

Aiyah, so funny. No one to look for during reccess. Rieeeee. Hope you’re having fun too okay?

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Dear God, today was really weird. How is it that people can meet so frequently like tha? Father Lord, only You know exactly what is going on. And the way You answer me is just so immediate I can’t help but to stop and be amazed by You. Dear God, it’s not going to be easy I know. But I pray You continue to give me the strength as I go through this everyday. Into Your hands, I commit again. You answer me even when I’m not praying and You know exactly what I’m thinking about.

From polka dots to stripes!

Haha. Hello. SCHOOL IS STARTING TMRRRRRRRRR. Okay, I got into my first choice, which was SA. Haha. So yes, I’ll be going to school tmr! Gosh, I haven’t really… ‘digested’ the fact that I’m starting school tmr. Its so fast cause earlier this week I was just telling myself how much I was looking forward to it.

Anyways, went for sleepover at Foang’s house ystd. It was really mad. Slept at like, 5 am plus and woke up at 645 am cause I heard my phone vibrating. Then after that I heard foang’s phone. So, the conversation went roughly like this :

*TZZZ TZZZ… TZZZ TZZZZ..*

I wake up, I see my phone and I’ve got 2 messages. So I start to panic. But since no one was awake, I decided to just leave it. Then…

*TZZZ TZZZ… TZZZ TZZZ… *

Foang’s phone started to ring too. So, I got even more panicky. And the thing is, everyone else was still sleeping.

So, I quietly nudged Yunye beside me.

Me: Yunye, are you awake?

YY: Kinda. Why?

Me: I think its heerrreeeeeee…

YY: Huh? What?

Me: The messaaaageeee! I got 2 messagess!

YY: AHHH. OPEN OPEN OPEN! VIVIENNE, WAKE UP! WAKE UP!

Foang: Huh? WHAT WHAT WHAT? Am I dreaming? HERE ALR AH? SO FAST!!!!! (frantically picks up her phone)

Melody: WHAT? WHAT?

Foang: MELODY ON THE LIGHTSSSSSSSS!

Okay, then we start screaming and screaming and screaming. Hahhaa. It was hilarious and really dramatic. But really thank God for blessing all of us with our choice of school.

Yep. Then we went on msn to go kaypoh where everyone else got posted to. Yep. We headed over to SAJC after that cause we accompanied RL and Rie to submit their forms. JIAYOU you two! We’ll be waiting for you okay?

Ohyeah, heard great news from Ted too. Praise God!

Haha, ohyeah. Forgot to say this. As a result of sleeping too little, Melody walked into the gents room at Jurong. Haha. Hilarious. Oh, took many photos too. I think Foang will post ‘em on fb. But, haha. It’s totally.. weird.

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Ohyeah, then I went to vivo with Rie to buy stationary at page one. Haha, expensive. so I didn’t get anything. But ig I had her 50 dollar voucher, I would buy the entire sticker shelf. I mean, not those sailormoon stickers but the really nice and pretty papercrafts. Yeah, Rie bought a pair of shoes today. Retail theraphy. Haha. Rieeeee I hope you’re feeling better okay? CALL ME TMRRRRR.

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Thank God for this day and the many things that He has taught me. Never to take things forgranted but in anything and everything, give thanks to God for He is good. Perhaps it may seem as though things are not planned in the best way but I know that one day we will all understand why things happen this way and why God didn’t plan it to be as how we plan it to be.

So for now, I’ll just take what I have and aim to do well in SAJC, which is where I believe God wants to put me in. Dear God, I trust in You.

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Oh, I forgot to mention, I miss St. Marg’s already.  Oh, and one more happy thing. Diane’s in SA too. So I can go to school with her. Okay. Bye! Gotta catch up on all the lost sleeping time. Orientation tmr!

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For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future. Proverbs 3:6

i am an imposter, my name is Rie.

HELLO. Its Rie here! (:

Erm, I’m BORED. and Sam is like next to me and she’s narrating to me things i should blog about! Haha. Sam is going high on A pineapple tart from my house (i drugged it, don’t tell her. *SHHHHH*) Okay, that was a joke. (: School’s gonna start soon. ): SO SAD RIGHTTTT. Okay erm, i’m running out of things to blog about. Alright i shall stop intruding (: So she can go post on my blog too!